It’s that time already!
I just submitted my application three minutes ago and it’s decision time already. I opened my email, and this is what I saw:
Rewind to three hours ago. I was in the kitchen, in my favourite dress- it’s a colourful bag that does absolutely nothing to my figure, but does everything to convenience me in this blazing weather. See below:
So there I am, baking cupcakes and brownies and whatnot (see below), frolicking about and goofing around with my little brother, oblivious to the very fact that this (see below, above Le Brownies):
Back to the present. I sit down, just to shut down my computer, and I see it. And i’m like:
I can’t believe it’s here again. I cannot believe it. Anxiety just curled it’s hand into a huge fist and struck me in the stomach and I keeled over, honestly. But before I fell, I caught myself and I said:
Priscilla, you’ve done this before lots of times. The decision has been made already at this point. You’re either in, or you’re not. The last time they rejected you, you were sad, but then you went on and had an AMAZING first 6 months of your gap year. So if they take you this time, praise God, good for you, and good for them. And if they don’t, praise God and good for you, because that will mean that this is not your path for now, at least not with this school. If they don’t take you, you will go on to do big things, still. If they don’t take you, you’ll be alive, and you’ll be alright, because that’ll be the path for you, and there will be absolutely no problem with that at all. So take a chill pill, and go back to reading Memoirs of A Geisha, because it has you blissfully spellbound. Plus:
Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken. Psalm 55:22
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Phillipians 4:17
And just like that, I’m at peace again. Ready for Friday. Not willing it to come any faster, not wishing it would come any slower. But grateful that Friday is on Friday, and that’s two days away. Patiently waiting, and knowing that thus far, my life has unfolded in this way for a purpose, and that wherever it’s about to go, is so that that very purpose comes to pass to its fullest capacity.
And so as my “first” (and hopefully last) decision draws near, this is me: